This will not be a researched, coherent article. This is just my open letter.
My dear fudgies,
I cannot lie to you all; I worry.
I receive your emails, I read your tweets, I see those near and far from me suffer,
and I worry.
I wish I could just hug you, and fix you with a snap of my magic fingers, but I can't. I can only worry.
I don't know what it is like to self harm. I cannot pretend to understand the incredible pain you are going through, because I don't, and to pretend like I do would be an insult to the complexity of your bleeding hearts.
But let me tell you what I do know:
I know what it is like to need control, to crave control, to your body and mind's detriment.
I know what it is like to hate yourself, to want to punish yourself, to press the self destruct button
I know what it is like to pretend that nothing is wrong, to hide a secret deep within you.
And above all, I know you are worth so much more than all of it.
Self harm is an alarmingly prevalent coping mechanism, but one we frighteningly don't hear too much about.
There is stigma, and shame, and even sometimes jokes.
You hate everything about youself, every inch of this incredible body you were gifted.
You think: EH, I'M NOT DAMAGING ANYTHING IMPORTANT.
But it kills you inside, because you know better.
And to be honest? It kills me too.
You all have no idea how beautiful you are. You just don't.
You see yourself through the eyes of a flaw-searching enemy. You will never win the battle against an already broken mirror.
I want to shake you, show you, and I want to cry for you. because you are so damn blind to it all.
Don't ever forget how amazing the human body is. You have limbs that can run, dance, and hug. You can see, hear and feel every single beautiful detail in this world.
Don't ever forget, don't ever take it for granted, so treat it right.
This isn't my most coherent, organized, researched article, I know, and I'm sorry.
But it's from the heart. My sad heart, begging you all to hold on, to stay clean for one more day.
I love you. I truly do.
"If one of your bright lights was to fall into darkness, the sky would never be quite as beautiful. "
*Self Harm Hotline: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288)
*To Write Love On Her Arms (http://www.TWLOHA.com) - A non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide.
*Self Injury Outreach and Support http://sioutreach.org
*Self-Injury Help, Support and Treatment http://www.helpguide.org/mental/self_injury.htm